my brain

    Do you too remember hearing the phrase, "The mind is a terrible thing to waste"? Here lately, I have been really wondering about my mind. In several different areas.
    First off, how in the world can words be such slippery things? I'm serious! Remember being admonished to "think things through before you go rushing ahead", or "think things through before you open that mouth of yours"? Well, I'll think through what I want to say, have the words all lined up proper like, and then while I am in the act of saying them, one of the words will just disappear. I mean to the extent that it's like they vaporized. Bother!!! There I am, saying something, and then suddenly floundering like a fool. Thanks a lot word! I wonder, is it possible that words have A.D.D. too? Personally, I think it's highly probable!!!! Just wish I had a clue what it was that flashed something shiny, making them suddenly run off and leave me babbling like an idiot!
    Secondly, is how "fuzzy brained" I get. It's often like fog has some how penetrated my brain and I just can't seem to evaporate it. Sometimes caffeine lessens it a bit, other times not. Sometimes more sleep helps, but not always. Sometimes the fog factor is extremely high, other times it's just kind of there. What is this fog? What is causing it in the first place? How in the world did it get into my brain? And WHAT can I do to permanently remove it?!!! I need answers people!!!!! (aka: HELP!!!)
    It has been suggested that the 'fuzziness' can be due to the ever invading migraines I get/deal with. Migraines infect and impact the nerve centers of your brain, thus causing things to not fire properly up there. I've even had specialist state this could be a large part of the problem for me. Well, I've been voting for years for the migraines to go away. And if they would take the fog with them, all the better!!! "Be Gone With Thee, I say!!!" (if only that was all it took! ;-p)
    Others have stated that they think it could be due to all of the 'details' I had to keep track of, for how many people, for how many years. I can see how that theory holds merit. In this case then, my mind is so bogged down that fog hangs over it. Not something you'd want somebody to write in a reference letter about you! ;-p
    Recently, my blogging friend Shanda, from 'purple amethyst 76' , wrote this in one of her postings,
    "An example of why my brain becomes overloaded: Yesterday, I was making dinner in the kitchen, while talking on the phone with my sister. Seth was with me and kept grabbing my skirt and fussing. Caleb was also by me, saying "Mom? Mom? Mom? Mom? Mom? Can I have a jellybean?" The next thing I know......in came Ethan and Grace with a wriggling SNAKE, so I could admire it. Now that I think back on it, I kinda wish there was a hidden camera in the kitchen, video taping it all. I'm sure it would be really funny to watch."
    This is part of the comment I left her (yes, 'part'. Yes, I often leave long comments. Okay, okay, I know your not surprised. Gee-sh! B-u-t, a lot of my 'blogging friends' have, of their own accord, shared that they not only don't mind "my ramblings" as I put it, but they actually look forward to them! Honest!!! And yes, I can provide proff if you keep pushing this! o:-p). Anyways, back to part of the comment I left her:
    "For years now, I have been saying that they will never be able to design a computer that can match a mother's brain. Especially a mom of more than three children!!
     - - They would not be able to program a computer to be able to keep the necessary amount of windows both open and simultaneously receiving data/in put like a mom's brain does.
    ex. - this child requesting info. on that subject. another child requesting a cookie. your spouse commenting about something your suppose to either remind them of later, or do something about. The fact that your this far along with dinner, but you got reminded (some vague way how) that your suppose to bake something to take to ...
    - - The computer would also have to have pert near (<-- a term my dad uses, which just fits so cutely sometimes ;-p) instant recall of a mass majority of data.
    ex. - a child wanting to know where a container is they can put their caught insect in. while another child is wanting to know if you know where they left such and such. and your spouse is asking you if you remember when it was that something in particular had happened. And your making dinner, which you usually make this recipe from memory, so the memory needs to pull up that recipe card.
    - - The computer must be able to instantaneously cross reference all files, and install immediate reminder alarms on all materials there in.
    ex. - when at the grocery store, it must remind you that your suppose to be supplying such and such for the class party at the end of next week. When your planning menus, it must remind you that while half of the family loves one side dish, the other half absolutely does not care for it, so you should have two side dishes with that meal. When your a bit behind on laundry and only have time for one or two quick loads, it must remind you that the soccer uniforms (which are still on the bedroom floor) will need to be cleaned by the game which is tomarrow after school.
    I could go on - but I have no doubts about whether or not your getting what I'm talking about.
    When I have a 'brain fart' and miss some detail, or misremember some fact a child has in put into my brain - I just tell them they are lucky my brain crashes far less often than computers do!!! Also - adding chocolate to my operating system, is as important as running defragers are on the computer!!!!! o;-p That's my story and I stick to it!!!!! ;-b {your welcome to join me in doing so!}"
    SO - considering that my 'computer' brain is full of the 'details' I had to keep track of, for how many people, for how many years, like I said, I can see how the theory that that could be what's causing my brain fogginess, does hold merit.
    Others have suggested that it could be age related, adding, "after all Cheryl, you are getting up there". I found their suggestion very uncomplimentary, their chuckles which followed quite sinister sounding, and the fact that they even would state such a thing nervy!!! !!! Yes, I am now in my early fifties. HOWEVER - I am ONLY in my early fifties, thank you very much!!!!!!!!!!!!! (o;-p)
    So I keep wondering about my mind. While I was never an anywheres near the top of the class student, I have never the less always strove in my own ways to learn, thus not wasting my mind.
    And sometimes the fear that perhaps this fogginess is the onset of something more permanent, more life altering, grips me. We have both known and currently know people whom have been hit with such diseases. Things such as Dementia and Alzheimer's. Nasty stuff those!!!!
    This past week, 'Misadventures Jen' wrote an oh so eloquent posting about minds. Reading it really touched me. I am encouraging you to click here and read it yourself.